To the top...

Good morning all-

When was the last time you thought you were on the top of your game?  Your probably wondering what I mean by this question.  It's simple.  When was the last time you felt the best about yourself, your life, your body, your partner, your ability to mother or your career?  It's a simple question with an obstacle course full of things not of God.

I have been struggling with  myself lately.  Can I climb back on top of the mountain and trust that God has gone before me?  Can I believe that God is enough?  Can I believe that problems are opportunities for promotion?  I love strategy and solving those problems but in this, I am not in control.  I don't have a strategy great enough.  No man has a great strategy to solve the problems of this world.  Do you know who does?  The answer is the Son of God.

For some reason, I had forgotten that I will suffer for the Word of God.  I purposely thought that I was whole and could trust God through anything and then the last couple months happened and my trust was barely hanging on.  I was trying to fix my problems and I was going to climb that mountain and conquer every fear and every frustration.  Do you see anything wrong with that statement?  I is not in Christ.  This world is not mine.  I am not mine.  My job, husband and children are not mine.  Nothing belongs to me and there is no way in heaven or on earth, I will ever overcome.  I don't have the intelligence, the stamina, or the ability to overpower darkness without the Son of God!

I am a mixture of the good, bad and ugly.  I am full of the Holy Spirit and when I trust, no man can overcome me.  No man will be able to crush me when I take "I" out of the equation.  Getting on top does not mean running as fast as I can, climbing with barely enough breath to breathe.  In order for me to rise above and conquer my fears, failures and future, I must put Jesus at the top of my list.  It is by Him, through Him and for Him that I remain on this earth.  It is not for me to be liked, loved, adored or lifted up by man.  It is only by His grace that I'm saved, I'm worthy and I'm His.

There is nothing I have earned here on earth that is worth anything.  My money, my children and my husband could be taken away without a moments notice.  I could be running a company one minute and without a job the next.  I could be revered as a great mom and my child could end of doing something that impacts his whole life and by the worlds standards is immoral.  All that I hold dear will not make me a great leader of women, only Christ can do that.  He is who I must hold above all things in this life.  It is by Him that I will go through trials and I will come out victorious.  My battle to be on top with me, myself and I, as champion, will not win.  Putting Christ as the focal point, pursuing love and not hate and walking by the word daily will be the only way I will win souls for Him.

I am not perfect.  I am a sinner and I am redeemed.  The climb over the past months has been rocky and very slippery.  The slope was often too treacherous and scary but I have overcome through the blood of the lamb.  He has my future.  All my problems have not been resolved.  There are issues I can't post on a blog but I can tell you that I will see the promise land and He will fulfill in me His purpose, not because I'm perfect but because I'm not.  Do you know any other religion that believes that?

My goal is to be His.  My mission field is to preach to women all over the world.  My next steps aren't clear but I know that the power that brought me to Christ will bring millions to Him too, with or without me.  I may have felt like I was at the bottom in the world but today I feel like I'm at the top because Christ picked me up, dusted me off and has purpose for this sinner!  I hope today's post encourages you to get out of the way and let our Savior take you to the top.

"for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith." 1 John 5:4 NIV.

"I have seen and I testify that this is God's Chosen One."

For all that believe and for those that don't, here is my prayer:

O, Mighty Lord of Israel, I come before You today asking that You alone fulfill your purpose for my life.  I ask that You would hold out Your hands and save millions.  I pray that through these words You will be glorified on earth.  I thank You for the trial and for helping me come through it.  You go before me and I am blessed.  Please bring women from every nation to You and help us all to love with Your heart.  In Jesus Name I pray. AMEN

Until tomorrow...