January 11, 2014

Good morning all-

How have you been?  I haven't been on here in a couple of days and have missed many messages from God I'm sure but one is sticking in my head right now and I thought you might like to hear it too.  It's about who our souls belong to and how that price was paid.

As of my last post, many things have gone on with my son.  It has been a roller coaster ride to say the least and I think he's about to learn a lesson that life must teach him if he wishes to pursue his dreams.  I have been awake many early hours worrying about him and his future.  Not because he's on drugs or drinking but because he gets distracted behind a make believe curtain that seems harmless but isn't.  We had it under control until the break and now, once again, I think he's about to ruin his chance to pay for college and guess what, I can't protect him.

This week he turned 18 and I no longer have babies.  That's scary in itself but I think more frightening for me is that I am losing control of their direction with every hour that goes by.  Am I struggling with control issues? Absolutely!  So when I woke up at 4 am this morning to a million thoughts floating through my head, one thought kept coming through.  "He is mine."  I wish I could say that it was a quiet thought but it wasn't.  I could hear it through my overactive mind as if someone was saying it to me.  I stopped and said, "What do you mean, Lord?" You gave me these kids to raise and I'm not sure I have done all that great and now your telling me, "He's yours."  Of course, I know he's yours.  But do I?

It got me thinking how often I have thought I was in control of my situation and I wasn't.  It also made me think about how I can't do anything to be in God's grace and that my salvation was because of Him not me.  Can you imagine my thoughts at this point?  Holy roller coaster!  So, once again my cousin's birthday card came to me, "Be still and know I am God."  No sweeter words to a woman who can't keep her thoughts on the track.  I have to wonder if what's about to happen in Hunter's life is going to impact mine as well.  Spiritually, we are His children and He will direct our path.

I leave you with this beautiful Scripture today and something to think about.  If we are on this earth trying to do our best, can we control our future?  Who owns our souls?  Who sees our faults?  But mostly, who washes our sins, cleans us up and puts our feet on the right path? You already know, Jesus.  So in the quiet of this morning, I have to give my thoughts and cares to Jesus.  Hunter and Austin belong to Him and I am just the vessel that got to help direct them, even if they have a few missteps.  All in all, He is their anchor and their Father, just as He is mine.  Think about that for a minute and come out if it knowing you belong to Him above all else!


“On the day when I act,” says the Lord Almighty, “they will be my treasured possession. I will spare them, just as a father has compassion and spares his son who serves him. And you will again see the distinction between the righteous and the wicked, between those who serve God and those who do not. (Malachi 3:17, 18 NIV)

Until tomorrow...