July 25, 2013

Good morning sisters-

I've learned something new this week that I'm not really proud of.  I have found myself several times this week thinking that the sky is falling.  Haven't I been the one to write God is faithful?  I know I have and that's what makes this confession so terribly difficult.

I have encouraged all of you to look up and to not look at the circumstances.  I have quoted numerous scriptures relating to God's faithfulness and yet, this week I have found myself doubting.  I'm so angry at myself as I write this because I know better.  I told the Lord as I laid in bed worrying about things I can't control, how sorry I am for doubting His omnipotence.  I know better and yet, I couldn't get the facts out of my head and relate them to what I know to be true.  Jesus is faithful, how He goes about being faithful is really dependent on what He's doing in our lives.  There are things we can count on like being saved by grace, being loved unconditionally and that His word holds true for all time and for all things.  So why when an obstacle comes my way I feel complete dread, can't sleep and begin to fear?  Probably because I needed to have the sand shift under my feet so He could build a foundation that won't crumble at the first sign of trouble.

I'm sure you can relate.  And like me, I'm sure you hate when you doubt and fear.  So last night, I worked out and as I was contemplating all the things I think I know; I made a decision to give it to God and to repent for my lack of trust.  Even the sentence sounds bad.  REALLY!  I had to remind myself what kind of Savior I follow.  I really don't deserve Christ at all.  Thank goodness He loves me through myself.

Maybe me relaying all my misgivings and proclaiming that Jesus is all I need will help you get through today.  I love Jesus and I thank Him with my whole heart.  Anyone else would give up on me but not Jesus, He says He's there and I believe Him.  Otherwise, there would be no reason for me to fall at all.

Be well today my sisters and thank you for your faithfulness to Jesus.  He really loves you, even when your sinking.  May He bless you and keep you today and may you share your failures while proclaiming His glory!

2 Corinthians 3:17 NIV:

     Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.

Proverbs 20:6 NIV:

     Many claim to have unfailing love, but a faithful person who can find?


My prayer today:

O, Lord, thank You for all that You do for me.  Thank You for being one with us and for loving us even when we are on sand.  Please take our feet and place them on solid ground.  Give us a foundation that we can be sure of and help us to quiet our minds from doubt.  We are weak vessels, always floundering and yet, you cover us and make us Yours.  I am so grateful that You are in my life and I will forever love You because You loved a retch like me.  I will never be able to proclaim You enough, love You more, or follow You as strongly as I like without You by my side.  You are the reason I get up in the morning; You are the song I sing.  Without You my life would be in ruin and I would wither away like the grains of sand.  Thank You for working on me and making me a strong house, giving when the wind is too high and standing for one thing and one thing only, You.  May You bless Your daughters today as we forge toward becoming more like You and thank You for changing my heart last night.  You are the light in my darkness!  In Jesus name, AMEN

Until tomorrow...