May1, 2013

Good morning all-

I have no excuses for not writing except my new job has required a little more from me than I thought.  So, once again I'm sorry that you haven't heard from me for almost a week.  I'm working on trying to find time to write during lunch, hopefully, God will help me with that.

The subject of today's blog is really trust and sin.  Someday, maybe not right now, but one day you will find yourself on your knees asking for Jesus to help you.  It could be about your marriage, your kids or your health but you will definitely find yourself there.  Then what?  Well, that's what I've been asking myself for the last week.  Then what Lord?  I'm here wondering what miracle or sign you can give me that everything will be alright when I know everything is falling apart.

These are the words that have been going over and over in my head.  I've had moments like this before.  I've wondered how I would raise my boys without my mom.  I've thought I couldn't get through a day if my dad passed away.  I even thought there was no way I could be alone but I did it and then Christ came to me and set my path.  Each event strengthened me, it never destroyed me.  I have learned mighty lessons in those moments.  Lessons I am still carrying and will continue to carry.  I have prayed many nights for answers and although I haven't received one for every question, I know Jesus has given me the strength to persevere.

Like the mighty wind of Kansas goes my heart these days.  It wavers so hard that I often feel like I'm a river birch swaying down and up with mighty force.  Of course, I know I'm not a river birch but I'm definitely in the middle of a monstrous tornado and wondering when my feet will hit the ground.  That's not good because if my heart is wavering so is my mind.  And unfortunately, that's where satan can meet us.  Why?  Because the flesh has control and the mind thinks it knows whats best.  But I've been down that path of leading myself and as long as my flesh is sinful, I can't trust my course.

For today, I am in mighty prayer.  Women all over the world are struggling with the sins of their husbands and the sins that they create themselves.  Marriages are suffering because satan wants the family to break apart.  Men have forgotten how to treat a woman and women have started to think they don't need men.  It's a crazy maize of whose right and none of it makes sense.

The only thing I truly get right now is that Jesus can and is in control of my life.  I may be a bundle of flesh but He is my Savior.  I can count on Him in the dark and He will provide light.  I don't know what the answer is to all this but I know that when I see Him; He will reveal it to me and I will know.

I'm counting on my mighty Savior today to bend and break men and women all over the world.  I'm counting on Him to continue to break my flesh and make me whole.  I'm counting on Him to love me through this journey and to show me my sins so that I can repent.  I am far from perfect but then again, who is.  Jesus is!  So I stand on my rock of salvation and let Him soothe my soul.  I pay attention to Scripture and I die to myself.  At the end, I hope that my faith gets me through and that Jesus wins!

Don't let your heart take over with anger, resentment and hurt.  Give it to Jesus and let Him take care of the rest.  I'm just one woman but I know there are others struggling with their hearts.  Give your heart to Jesus and your course will be set.  May God bless and keep you today.

Ephesians 4:26 NIV:

     "In your anger do not sin." Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold.

My prayer today:

O, Lord, do not let my anger get in the way of seeing You!  I trust in You to soothe my soul and to right my path.  I give you my worries, fears and anxieties and in You I am whole.  Be with me today as I pray for Your people and help me to see You more than I see my heart.  Let me die to myself and be renewed in Your arms.  Take from me this burden and hold me close as I come before You.  I pray that You will forgive my sins and that You will fortify my body.  I need You Lord and so do the ladies that read this blog.  Be with us today as we fight the good fight.  Keep us whole and protect us from the hand of evil.  In Jesus name, AMEN

Until tomorrow...