March 1, 2013

Good morning all-

I hope you're shouting that today is a glorious day.  God has been reminding me of how precious every minute is and how we should rejoice in the time he has given us.  Today is the beginning of days that will get warmer and snow that will melt.  It's a renewal of the earth where animals will begin to frolic and trees will bud.  Young flowers have begun to pierce the earth and everything will begin to bloom, soon Spring will be here.

We are walking towards the resurrection of Jesus.  The Catholics are in lent and the rest of the world is bowing to the Lord.  I, myself, have been facing personal challenges and have realized that I need Jesus more than ever.  Over the last week, I have been constantly reminded of the stripes He wore for me.  I go to bed thinking about them and I wake up thinking about them.

It's been good for me to meditate on trusting in Him in all circumstances.  I have reminded myself at least 20 times that He is there for me and that He knows exactly where my mind is.  I have to say there have been times this week I have walked in fear.  I'm not proud of it but I did anyway.  You know the kind, where your heart beats too fast and it feels like its coming out of your chest and then your mind can't shut down because all you can think about is that fear.  Yuk!  I hate myself for it but I have to say I kept running back to Jesus and asking Him to help me.  I prayed over and over that He would bring peace in me and that I would accept that peace.  Guess what?  He gave it to me and then of course I would lose it for a moment.  You know the cycle.  It's really a cycle of fearfulness and no trust.  So back again, I would ask Him to bring me peace and He would.  Thank You Jesus!

His stripes were for our iniquities, His death was to save us and His life is a living, breathing testimony of love.  I may not be able to trust in man but I can surely trust in God.  I waver like You but my experiences have been the more I seek Him the greater I find Him.

I'm sorry I haven't written this week but my mind was full of fear and I really didn't want that on this blog.  I want to show my fears after God has corrected them and my mind has once again trusted in Him. I'm glad that I can be transparent but I want every one to realize I'm human too.  And believe me, if you're walking a path of fear, I get it!  But Please go to the Lord and surrender.

Proverbs 3:5 NKJV:

      Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding.

My prayer today:

I love you, Lord, with all my heart and all my soul.  My fears of this life sometimes control what I know to be true. I preach to others Your love and Your Spirit but sometimes I even fall to my humanness.  I am sorry for my failings but grateful for You.  You have guided me by great storms and taken me by still waters.  You have rushed in and saved me, way before I was born.  You have known me and made me and now You mold me unto You.  I am imperfect but because of You; I have the chance to be a courageous warrior.  My goal is to preach the gospel and my mission is to seek You in all things.  I have wandered many deserts, climbed many mountains and rested by still waters to find You.  I have let You down often but You have always been there to pick me up.  I am in Your house, watching You work and I am so glad that You saved me.  Continue Your work through my life and help me be the woman You want me to be.  There are women all over the world that are suffering.  We still have men that beat and torture.  We live where children are pursued by the worst addicts and we continue to be in countries where women are not to be seen or heard.  You are a God that knows all these things and even in our failings, You love us.  I'm asking that many would come to know You through my life and that I would continue to grow and trust in You.  I have loved You so long but it is great to know You as my Father and my friend.  Help all of us to be glad for the days that we have and to live them with a passion that You did.  Thank You for sacrificing Yourself so that I could know the love of my God.  For all You are and all You will be, thank You for loving us and giving us You!  Om Jesus name, AMEN

Until tomorrow...