Hope and Believe Like a Child

 Good morning my sisters-

I am awake at the wonderful hour of 3AM. It is my once-a-week curse and when I travel my several days a week ritual.  Saturdays seem to be a time when I wake this early. I'm a dreamer and often I have very vivid dreams, some I remember and others there are just whispers that remind me what I dreamed about that night but always, during this hour, I know I'm awakened to pray.

You might be wondering, who or what I am praying for at 3AM. Truly, anything that comes on my heart and into my mind. It's usually for world leaders, starving children, widows and orphans but this week it is the floods in Texas and my heart is crying out for those emergency responders and volunteers trying to find those that have already departed to give their families closure.

I believe we are called to pray for the mourning as well as the workers. The workers are always fewer than the task at hand and I wonder if Texas is having the same issue. I can't imagine what it feels like to crawl through the rubble that is left. The stories are heart wrenching, and I guess I just have a very big heart because the burden has been heavy as I've prayed for people I don't know and will never know. But like all things dark, there is always a glimmer of hope. A resounding feeling that our God is near in the darkest of places and I typically find it in watching animals play and hearing the innocent words of children.

Children here on earth or those that have gone to heaven somehow have a way of leading us to God. Their innocence flows from a heart less tainted by a world that hasn't fallen into the trap of skepticism but rather hope, faith and truth.

I've been caught up scrolling on the Texas floods which has been dark for me because I know how painful it is to lose people suddenly and want them back to hold, to touch, to talk to. And yet, I keep seeing these reels on young children asking Jesus to give them a rainbow or telling their mother Jesus is near and then a rainbow shows up, and even in the weirdest one I saw someone caught lightening in the middle of a rainbow, which was God's promise never to flood the whole earth again.

Hearing little children speak the name of Jesus really makes an impact on me. Their amazing way of believing through eyes that have yet to see the world for what it is always reminds me that in the dark there is LIGHT. God illustrates that to us every day. As I write, it is pitch black outside and in 3 hours it will be light. Dark and light exist but often if we stay quiet, we will begin to see that light shines brighter.

That's what children do. They hope, they believe, they see things we can't see. I believe that child saw Jesus on the reel. I believe children have seen Jesus that are sick. I believe that children have the ability to feel Jesus more than adults and I believe Jesus cares for the little ones just like He said in the Bible.

They remind me that hope doesn't have to be all theirs. God reminds us often that He has a hope and a future for us. What does that mean? It means as long as we are here on earth he has a plan for our lives. Some are here for just a whisper and others may have a hundred years, but we ALL have the hope and the promise that God has a plan in all this chaos. How do we know? Look toward the innocent child that believes. 

In a few weeks, the Texas floods will be fleeting from people’s minds. Those that are living the nightmare will always remember the day their lives changed. But there will be more floods, more disasters, more wars, and we have to cling to the HOPE Jesus left behind. Jesus did not get to fulfill His will when He went to the cross. He, instead, filled God's will which now gives all of us the HOPE of eternal life. My ask of God is for me not to forget Texas or the hundreds of families impacted by any life taking ferocious event. How do I know that I could forget? Because people have already forgotten North Carolina and the fires that burned LA. I don't want to forget any of them because these events remind me to look up, to believe and to know that although it seems cruel and unfair, God has a plan. 

I would like to encourage you to spend time with a little one. They are inspiring and so full of what we once had like wonder, hope, and awe. It is in this moment we get to glimpse into how God wants us to act, to think and to feel. He says, come to me like little ones. Why? Because they don't question!  I have to remind myself often to think like a child. It's easy to fall into the darkness of this world rather than to meditate on His words which is living and true. That's what I'm doing now. I'm reflecting on His words, His character and what He did for all of us. I believe that many in the flood are with Him right now and yet, I know from experience that may not comfort many of the families impacted until they go through the full force of their grief. My prayer is they feel Him in the dark and somehow, someway, they see the light. 

Lord Jesus, I pray you will send the Holy Spirit to every single person needing you today. I pray that we won't forget the tragedy of this year with fires, floods, and war. I pray that we will be called to pray for those that have lost so much and that one day they will see light again. I pray for the emergency responders and for the volunteers who are working so hard to retrieve loved ones for those left behind and I pray you will put anyone that needs prayer on my heart as you did this morning. I know that hope and faith are hard to come by in the dark but even a glimmer brings us to your feet and that's my prayer for everyone that is going through a dark time. I am praying that they won't lose hope in YOU. 

Thank you for every good thing and please bring about YOUR glory from the events that washed away their light. I'm tremendously grateful that you put people on my heart and I pray that my sins are forgiven so my prayers can resound in Heaven. Blessings to all. In Jesus Name I pray. AMEN

 Matthew 18:3 NIV

And he said: "Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven."

Matthew 19:14 NIV

Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."

Seek to Find-The Tragedy in Kerrville, Texas

 Good morning my sisters-

Weeks have passed since the tragedy in Texas where young children, families and possessions floated down a powerful river. Water that was so terrifying that it swept campers and cabins down a ferocious roaring river that ended in lives lost and possessions wiped away.

The July 4th holiday comes and goes for me and it is always sad. In 2006, my brother took off for Colorado with his friends never to return. He fell off a mountain after a climb. It was horrific waiting to hear if he was dead or alive. Hours seemed like years and yet, when we got the news the shock of it reverberated throughout the house as if something was gone forever and it would never come back.

As I watched the news casts, this year, I relived those hours. I understand the wait but what happened two weeks ago is my heart broke for every person that lost that day and there are many that lost. The country was grieving for families they didn't know and the poster on Facebook and the news of children's faces and parents contact information was numbing. 

In the midst of the storm, teams were called to try to find those loved ones and some were saved and others were gone. The mighty Lord has many of them with him, especially the girls of Camp Mystic . Innocent children were lost and now as we watch the reporters filming there is a calmness, a silence that this is where many met their maker.

Time is not forever even though the world makes you believe so. Time is for God to use to refine us, to build us up and to grow us into a vine that can bear fruit. Some die young because their journey is done. They were good and faithful servants and others of us have to wait until our purpose has been completed to go home.

I think the thing that was most poignant to me was the fact that we only have today. The world deceives us into believing we have so much more time but truly, we just have today. I am more aware of that today than I was two weeks ago. I have lost many of my loved ones suddenly so you think I would be aware. However, the events of July 4th in Kerrville, Texas will remain in me a forever memory that I must maximize my time on earth and spread the true hope which is Jesus Christ. He is the Way, the Truth, the Life. Many who died in the floods knew Him and now reside on the streets of gold. 

What comes next after the funerals is a sadness that no one can comfort but Jesus. It is an emptiness no one can explain. Grief is raw, unrelenting and drowning at least for a little while. It will take faith just to get out of bed. It will take determination to enter the church. It will take stamina to call out to Christ in tears. It will take good friends to just let you cry. It will take you, on your knees asking God to help you to breathe. And in those moments, He will be with you. He will comfort you. He will hear you and He will be near but you will want your parents, your children, your brothers and your sisters and He knows that and is listening.

To all the people hurting, I am praying for you. I am asking the Mighty Comforter to hold you. I am interceding and asking God to protect you from evil and for Him to have victory over your loss. I know you hurt and I also know you can get through this if you seek you will find. It won't be easy but you can do it. How?  With Jesus, you will see a brighter day. When?  I can't answer that but I can state that little by little, as you hear the doves cry and watch for a butterfly, light will begin to take away the darkness, that is my prayer for you. 

Don't give up! Keep praying! Keep asking! Keep seeking! You will find Him in the midst of your darkest days. And for those that don't know Jesus, find someone that does because as you witnessed on the television, you only have today. 

Dear Lord Jesus- My prayer today is for all those that have lost so much all over the world. I pray that they will seek you and find you in their trials. I pray that you will comfort those that are seeking to bring back loved ones to their families in Kerrville and for all that have worked tirelessly in devastated areas. I, pray too for those that don't know you. May the events of July 4th, 2025, be a wakeup call to all of us that your coming will be the same. We will not have any warning just the sound of a trumpet to tell us you are here. I pray for all that don't know you that they will see that you are love and so worth following. Even Christians have trials, we all have trials and in them you are near when we call upon you and ask you to be in our lives. Thank you for that and the peace that we will one day see those we have lost on earth. Your promises never fail. I pray this in your Holy name Jesus, Amen.

 

Matthew 7:7 NIV

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

How can we judge if Jelly Roll is a Christian?

 Good morning my warrior sisters-

I was watching a reel with Brandon Lake and Jelly Roll a few days ago and I have to say it broke my heart. They are releasing Brandon's song as a duet together and it's mighty.  I was listening and all of the sudden Jelly Roll said, "This is hard." And I thought, what is bringing him to tears? It's us! Those of us that call ourselves Christians and then he said, people have stated he isn't a Christian because he cusses and doesn't look like someone who would be, that is so WRONG!

I feel as though we as Christians need to get in the Bible more if we are persecuting God's anointed. Who then is fit to be a Christian if not Jelly Roll and many more like who he was, like who I was. If you can say Jelly isn't a Christian, then you have to say David, Moses, Peter, and Paul were all not Christians. Would you say that? Of course you wouldn't, but who of them was perfect? NONE!

I ask you my sisters to consider praying for each other and to pray against the spirit of judgement on others. I pray that we send millions of prayers to the Heavens proclaiming that God's redemption of the sinner is mighty, all sinners. If you condemn or judge Jelly, then you must look at yourselves. This is not to say women have condemned him, but someone has.

Most of the time I'm proud to be a Christian but as I heard him say, "God has my heart." I thought what are we doing people! God has called us to spread the good news and by the way, he definitely is. We are not to judge or be judged by man, but rather God.

If we really believe in the Bible, then we must step out of our holier than thou attitude and receive those Jesus is receiving. I can guarantee as I sit here writing Jelly's platform is reaching more than the perfect person sitting in church. And God will continue to use him mightily, that's a fact. But if those of us that say we are Christians don't welcome them to the Bride, how many will fall away disillusioned and angry.

Jelly looks different than most. He did say he was a bad human and his testimony is full of hard stuff like prison and using women. He's real and his story is exactly what our time needs because he was a person needing a savior and God did just that. He did it for the prostitute, for the demon possessed, for the blind and lastly, his last act on earth was to take his brother on the cross, the murderer. We do not and never will understand God if we are judging others. We must look at the beauty of taking a prisoner and setting him free. We must embrace the differences and say, welcome. Why? Because if we don't then we don't deserve to say we are followers of Christ. We become Pharisees and I don't want to join that crowd, do you?

I hope today this blog makes you think about how you were redeemed. To ask yourself, where was I in life when God said come? You may not have gone to prison, but you were in some very dark place I am sure of that. And then hope beyond your wildest imagination came to save you. Your level of bad human might differ from Jelly’s, but we were all bad humans and are being perfected through the Holy Spirit. I welcome Jelly and men and women like him because like Paul he knows what it means to be saved by Jesus, maybe more than those of us that have walked the path.

Jelly or Bunnie if you see this, I'm so glad you are part of the Bride! Thank you for embodying Christ and showing all of us that it's a journey with Christ. I pray that both of you are blessed beyond belief and that God uses Jelly's platform to bring the prisoner to Jesus. Thank you for being real, vulnerable, and representing Jesus in that you know God has your heart. True redemption begins with knowing you are a sinner and receiving the hope of Jesus Christ!

Here's a Scripture we should all consider today:

John 8:7 NIV

When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, "Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her."

Let's not throw stones but instead shine light into the dark. And please remember that if you were perfect, you wouldn't need a Savior. 

Be well my sisters and may many more come to know the name of Jesus!

ABIDE IN ME

ABIDE IN ME

Good morning my warrior sisters! It's been years since I have written on this blog but it is time to start again. The LORD has been good to me and therefore, I want to begin to share his grace in my journey and the power of the truth.

There is no time like now to really come back to the Shepherd or if you don't know Him, you must seek Him. The events in this world demand a greater focus on our Savior. Like Daniel, we must be on our knees looking for Him, reading about Him, and proclaiming that He did die for us.

I will begin to write again and I hope that many will see the meaning of why we are here, through His words. He is real, He is with us, and He wants you!

So stay tuned as I begin again to ABIDE in the LORD I love. Writing is not just a passion but a gift, one that I cherish, and one that I hope brings hope to the downtrodden and light in the dark. 

This is indeed our time to shine. So with that, I say Glory to God. I pray that my time on this blog blesses many and that through your words dear LORD, people unite with the one true God. I have been blessed to know my Savior for over 40 years and not all of those have been in harmony with Him or myself.  However, I do know this, He is faithful in all things and has walked with me through my darkest days and brought light into areas where there was no hope. 

Today, I leave you with this my sisters in Christ as it came to me last night. There is no fruit if we don't abide in our Savior.

John 15:4 NKJV

Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.

I don't know about you but in this version, the words really penetrated my heart. I cannot bear fruit unless I abide in Him and neither can you.

My prayer today: May the Lord reach you wherever you are and may you find him in His words. May He cast a wide net with His mercy and may we all seek Him and find Him.  I pray this in Jesus Name, Amen.

SEEK (αναζητούν)

Good morning my sister warriors-

 

Lord as I put Your words out there may they touch the lives of the lost, lonely, and seeking. I pray this in your name.

Today, I started this post with a prayer. You see prayer is an intricate part of my life. It has been there since I learned the Lord's prayer when I was just four years old. My grandmother taught it to me, she was also the first person that took me to church. I tell you this because the next year she was gone. 

I still remember her worry beads (rosary) strung on her bed. I can remember her speaking comfort to me and teaching me about Jesus. Those words have forever been a beacon of light to me. Her words, her teachings took me on a path to seek (zeteo) the kingdom all the days of my life.

One woman, for one year, impacted a little girl through years of hardship. My goal is to be that woman for you. To steer you out of the world and into the Kingdom of God. Not as a religious zealot but as a woman who has had challenges, who has faced loss and hardship. I've been confused, sought prestige and money and I've even lost sight from time to time. I've put work over my relationships, including my most sacred relationship with God, His Son, and the Holy Ghost. You see, I am not about religion. I believe that the relationship is most important. Man defines religion, God defines relationship in His words, His miracles, and His continued presence throughout mankind.

My goal today is not to say, "bad girl or listen to me." My purpose is to steer you toward Him with His words. My grandmother in 12 months showed me with her dedication, through the teaching of the Lord's prayer and through love that Jesus would always be there for me. And you know what, she was so right.

Life is not easy, especially today. Women are being challenged, tempted, and that's the plan of evil. You see the farther the world can carry you away from Jesus, more bad will come. We are the pillars of the family. Those set to carry the sons and daughters of future generations. It is our birth right and our purpose to lift others, to love and to carry on the tradition of love, faith, and devotion.

We are special. We have a purpose and I believe when we seek God, we truly find Him. The peace of all understanding lies in the blood of Christ. 

I know life is confusing right now. I know you are fighting against wanting to be the most powerful and yet wanting to be loved at the same time. I've been there, I know. I am just so thankful that my grandmother cared enough to open the Bible to me, to give me a prayer that has carried me my whole life and maybe even more importantly, a heart to seek Him. 

She knew a secret that I will share with you today. She knew that without Him she was nothing but with Him she could conquer anything. If life is hard, try going to Jesus. He's ready to walk with you through His words. Praying for you my sister. Seek him first and you will begin to see the world and yourself in a new way.

Jeremiah 29:13 NIV

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with your heart.

Psalm 24:6 NIV

 

Such is the generation of those who seek him, who seek your face, God of Jacob.

The Lord’s Prayer

Our Father who art in heaven,
hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come.
Thy will be done
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
and forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us,
and lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom and the power, and the glory,
forever and ever.

Amen.

NEVER ENOUGH-Where does my hope (ελπίδα) come from?

Good morning my warrior sisters-

It's been some time since last I wrote. Time goes by so fast. My apologies for not taking the time to get on this blog and for not reaching out in many months.  I've been in the throes of researching, learning Greek and praying for the nations, for our men and for our children. It's been a turbulent time in America and beyond and with such times, I have been silent but praying.

The title of this blog is "Never Enough." I guess that's how I've been feeling lately. Not quite good enough to spread the words of God. Not quite good enough as a mother or an employee. Just not good enough to serve a mighty God and spread his truth. Have you ever felt that way? Simply, quietly a failure because you just can't do it all and so something suffers, mainly your service to the Holy One.

That's where I've been. I've been writing in journals instead of on the web. I've been secretly praying in the dark for our world, for our men and for all people. I've prayed for unity, love, and awareness. I've prayed for truth to set us free and a world to see Jesus instead of themselves and yet, here I am talking about not being enough. You see when we don't believe we can do something, we won't. When we let fear enter us then defeat can easily come next. And when we see ourselves as nothing, then we are nothing (at least in our own minds and hearts).  None of it is true, however. The truth is that the Lord our God made you for such a time as this and even when you don't feel you are enough, He is!

In the last year, I've learned a lot about myself, my children, and the world we live in. I see how the world is dominating young men and making them weak. I see women only focused on breaking the glass ceiling and people only caring about the politics they believe in, instead of mankind. I've watched as the orphan count moves up, as families are displaced and as COVID has broken once profitable business owners. Many have had to bury loved ones this year and many can't pay rent or buy food. And by the way, they did nothing to get in that position. The world takes and each of us have a story to fulfill.

So maybe you are like me and questioning if you are enough. Maybe your strength is zapped, and you are weary. Maybe you find yourself mothering, teaching, and trying to be everything to everybody and in the quiet, you look up and say, "I just can't do it anymore. I'm not enough."  Don't be discouraged, you've just ended where God begins.

At this point, you’re probably saying to yourself, "that's what she thinks." I hear you. It's not what I think that matters. It's what the Bible teaches. Do you think Ester thought she was enough? Of course not. She feared going to the King for sure. Do you believe the woman at the well believed she was enough? I'm pretty sure her answer to Jesus says it all. Do you believe that Peter thought he was enough? Remember, he denied Jesus three times and he was his friend. 

In this life, we will struggle. We will struggle with self because humans are selfish. It's only when we feed the Word into our lives that we find Jesus and finding Jesus means we find hope.

Hold this word deep in your heart. Ask Jesus to give you a way, a HOPE, a truth to feel blessed and anchored in Him. We are not enough alone. I know that to be true. Jesus has shown me over and over that together, with Him, I can do the impossible. 

And that's why I'm writing to you. Live your best life. Look for Him. Ask Him to show you the way. He is the great Shepherd; through Him we can trust and have HOPE. A glimmer is better than none and by the way, have grace for yourself. We are not perfect; I am not perfect. Seek and you will find Him. If He can be graceful to us, then we should have grace for ourselves. We are ENOUGH through Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior. 

Hebrews 6:19 NIV

We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, (20) where our forerunner, Jesus, has entered on our behalf. He has become a high priest forever, in the order of Melchizedek.

My prayer for you today:

Lord, please let this word (elpida)seep into the hearts, minds and souls of the women that don't feel ever enough. You, O, God are the way, the truth, the light. Through you, we can see ourselves and through that mirror we can begin to flourish with grace and hope. I pray that you would continue to guide my warrior sisters to you and that you would not allow us to give up but rather to forever look for you in all our circumstances. I pray this in Jesus name. AMEN

FOOLISHNESS (μωρία)

Good morning my warrior sisters-

I hope this finds you well. I'm sitting on my patio listening to the sweet sounds of song from all the beautiful birds. My dogs are trying to kill some barn swallows and I'm drinking coffee realizing that I haven't really looked at the world with such awe in quite some time.

The world is in great turmoil, no need to rehash it all here. I think if you are out in society you know that already.  There is a lot of foolishness going around and not much wisdom for sure. As I was diving into Scripture today foolishness (Moria in Greek) jumped off the page. When I think of foolishness, I think of the Dictionary.com meaning:

 Foolishness (adj): resulting from or showing a lack of sense; ill-considered; unwise:

a foolish action, a foolish speech.
In Corinthians, God explains that foolishness is actually good. Why? Because those that think they have wisdom, actually don't. Have you ever noticed how the Bible flips words?  We believe one way because society and culture dictate it so. Just like in the time of the Pharisees, they were the wisest of the Jews and yet, dead to the truth. Through their perceived wisdom, they crucified God's son. 
I believe we are all a little foolish in our own right. We think we know best but don't. We choose other methods of comfort over Christ. We stomp our feet and raise our hands against all the wrong things, and we believe we could do a better job than those in authority.  We think we know everything, when actually we know very little. In the last months, I have pondered that thought often. Especially, when situations didn't go exactly as planned. The conclusion I've come to is I must seek God's words and God's wisdom, for my own is formed by the world at large, and not by truth.
The world seeks to destroy, whereas, God Himself seeks to provide wisdom.  Moria in the Bible is not represented as the dictionary.com meaning would suggest. We see this in Corinthians. 
1 Corinthians 1:25 NIV:
For the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than human strength.
I pray for the foolishness of God and not man. I pray for wisdom for women everywhere. I pray we will lift our men and children up to God and that He might be with us to provide greater wisdom and more strength to fight the spiritual battle taking place all over the world. We must not fear, for fear crushes. I believe that He is who He says He is and that He will provide for all of us as we seek Him.  Ladies, I beg of you to consider this truth as a foundation of how we should pray in the coming months.  We must seek God with our whole hearts and pray that Christ intercedes on behalf of every nation, every color, every situation. We need His foolishness to spread throughout the world and we need to trust Him. AMEN!

Move toward the LIGHT (φῶς)

Good morning my warrior sisters:

 

I've been up for hours now, reading, writing and talking to Jesus! Best part of my day, that is along with a cup of freshly brewed coffee!

 

I hope today finds you well. It seems like America is waking back up from a deep sleep.  People are out more; we are phasing businesses back to life and soon COVID-19 will just be a historical event on the books. For me, I think it's really changed me. Not in fear as it has done for some but more in living. Time is precious, I think I knew that but wasn't living that way. I've changed and so have my priorities regarding time, connecting with others, and looking for Jesus. All of a sudden the most prevalent, maybe the most pertinent priority is getting into His word, praying and seeking Him over everything else. 

 

Which brings me to our word today, Light or FOS as it is in Greek. I think people all around the world need this very word. For some images of death and destruction are all they can see, and unfortunately, there will be more to come. In places like Brazil mass graves have been dug in anticipation of death. We've even seen it here, although not a war, it seems like it.  And with any war comes darkness. We must fight that darkness with the power of light.  You see Jesus is the light of the world. He overcame darkness so that we would have eternity.  

 

Jesus' light doesn't just illuminate the world for a moment, it’s for all time. So, as you contemplate this life, which might not be so pleasant right now, I pray you get your Bible's out and begin to pray for revelation. FOS is revealing. From Genesis to Revelation, light is referenced and for good reason, FOS overcomes darkness every single time. 

 

Light is beautiful, it is a beacon on the hill that delivers us from darkness. It shines to remind us that we are His and in Him we can conquer the darkness. Don't give up hope for a brighter tomorrow. It might look different; I think we all know it will but every single day the sun rises we know the power of our God. He placed it there to remind us that it is a NEW day!

 

I hold onto the hope that FOS gives me, and I hope you do to. I have disappointments just like you and I always will.  I guess the things I've learned from this life are that the only true power we have is in His words and in their meaning for our lives. Many call the Bible old fashioned; I believe it’s the most relevant book for today.  It carries a message of hope in a time of great fear, financial uncertainty and death. As a matter of fact, I would like to challenge you to look up many of the passages containing light. Did you know that in the NIV version of the Bible light is referenced 232 times, think that's a coincidence? Light is important today, tomorrow and years to come. HE IS THE LIGHT OF THE WORLD. You can look for years for a fix and Lord knows we all have but, in the end, there is only one fix, Jesus. 

 

I challenge you to look up light and I know He will be revealed. Good luck, it's a challenge worth taking. 

 

Be well my sisters and forge ahead one minute at a time with light leading you to Him.

 

Proverbs 20:27

The human light is the lamp of the Lord that sheds light on one's inmost being.

 

Isaiah 9:2

The people walking in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of deep darkness a light has dawned.

What counts and who are you BEHOLDEN (υπόχρεος) to?

Good morning my warrior sisters-

I woke this morning at 4 am and went straight to writing to God. Have you ever woken with a start only to find you need to sit with your Savior?  For three days I have woken and went straight to my writing and it has comforted me.

Through my writing the word BEHOLDEN (υπόχρεος) sprang to my mind. I wrote: "I'm forever grateful to you Lord and I know  your will for my life is better than my will for sure. You are amazing and great, O, Lord. I am beholden to you."

Beholden means: Owing thanks or being of service to someone.

That's me in a nutshell!  I'm beholden to the living God who loved me enough to sacrifice His Son on a cross and give me life.

What a gift to be given and to find a word that so encompasses how I feel today.  I was taken back through many events as I sat and wrote in my journal this morning and one thing stood out; in crisis I always want to flee.  I want to have a Plan A, Plan B, and Plan C.  The problem with that philosophy is in the words, "I want."

Faith is like building muscle, you must train every day to see the results and that's exactly what I must do.  Otherwise, I start moving to I want. How can I be beholden to God and still speak those two little words? That's the question I asked myself today and the answer was glaring, the two can't even live in the same space. 

I've faced many trials in my lifetime, but I have to say the biggest trial is in me. It's in my wants, desires and heart. It bleeds for me instead of God and how it pains me.  I'm lucky though because every time I start walking down the path of my two-year-old self, God says: "Do you remember me and who you serve?"

Yes Lord, I do remember you and I remember that I must surrender all in order to seek the kingdom. So that's exactly what I'm doing by writing to you. I'm asking you to die to your desires, your hopes, your fears, your dreams, your ambitions and surrender.  We must be BEHOLDEN to Him because He is who we can trust, he does hold our dreams and hopes and as we surrender, we are gifted with our greatest desire which is to be in His presence. All else worldly does not compare to one second in His presence. 

1 Thessalonians 5:18 NIV: give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

May this day find you well and may you surrender your two-year-old self like I did at 4:30 am. It's well worth it and it has many perks. Remember an obedient child finds favor.

My prayer today:  O, Lord, comfort those of us that continually go to the "I want."  We know your will for us is better than our own and yet, we fall. Lift us up and walk us through our surrender so that we can find you. I'm completely grateful to you and for all you've done to walk me through every tantrum. You are so faithful, and I am so beholden to you.  May my sisters seek you daily with humbleness and surrender and may I continue to be beholden to you.  In Jesus name I pray. AMEN!

EVEN NOW (akomi kai tora)...

Good morning my warrior sisters-

It's a beautiful Sunday morning in the heart of Kansas. The birds are signing loudly as the trees sway to the north winds. It's a much different picture than this morning at 6:30 AM when the winds were bending the trees in half and the rains were torrential. Isn't it strange how events come and go so fast? One minute you are in a dark and gloomy storm and then, like so much of life, the sun comes out and it's beautifully sunny and happy again.

Some trials take a season, others take years and then some are short and sweet. Unfortunately, we are not in a time like that today.  Instead we are in a season similar to the seasons of the great plague or even cholera. There is no stopping point. The pains are in waves very similar to child birth.  It started slowly with groaning and stretching.  It graduated to great pain and the thoughts that the pain was much to much to bear and now, there's a sense of, "When will this be over?"  Unlike with childbirth, we may not see the end of this pain. More is to come but there is hope if we do one thing: rend (shizo in Greek) our hearts toward Jesus.

You see we have forsaken the one true God. We have put ourselves, our beliefs and our desires before the truth. We have turned our backs, stayed silent and excluded God Almighty from our every day lives. We don't speak the name of Jesus for fear we will offend and so, we are seeing the fruits of our apathy.  Many will say, "Where is God?" It's always our nature to blame everyone and everything but ourselves.

It's time to take responsibility, to stand up and offer hope to the hurting through Jesus Christ. In Joel 2: 12 (NIV), it states: "Even now," declares the Lord: "return to me with all your heart, with fasting and weeping and mourning."

We still have time, we still can repent and tear our hearts toward him. We can mourn with those that mourn and weep with those that weep.  We are in a crisis and we must approach it with all our hearts.

I am comforted that "even now" our Lord is with us. He's waiting for us and there is so much hope in those two words. I am in awe of a God that never gives up on a spoiled, foolish people. He is a true father, a true friend.

Take a moment to thank Jesus for the sacrifice of His life.  He will intercede on our behalf. He is one with the Father and through Him we will see restoration.  I have no idea where COVID-19 will take us but I'm sure of this, we have a father that loves us. Even in our own iniquity, He will be there for us and all He asks is for us to return to Him with ALL of our hearts. I, for one, hold onto that promise and ask the Lord to guide us and care for us. 

May today find you well.  Will you please pray this prayer with me? 

Almighty God, please come upon your people and heal our land. We are sorry for the apathy that has filled our hearts and minds. Draw close and light a fire in our hearts for you and only you. Protect us and provide for us, for we know that only through you is there external life. Make us courageous when we want to fear and help us to lift up our brothers and sisters in their hour of need. We pray this as one, even now with all the dissension, please heal our lands! We believe that you can. In Jesus name, AMEN!

I STILL BELIEVE (PISTIS)

Good morning my warrior sisters-

We are approaching the day in History when Jesus was Risen from His grave.  So many don't believe this and yet, we know it truly happened. People witnessed it and because of it, we are saved.

This week has been a tremendous journey in prayer for me. I have thought about Jesus so many times as I've prayed about all the jobless in America, for those dying without family and for the lost that need Him so very badly.

Last night, my husband and I rented "I STILL BELIEVE," the story of Jeremy Camp and his wife and it rocked me a bit I must say.  How many times have I faced the fire to ask those very questions? How often did my plans fail and I wondered how could this be? How many times did I pray and believe for a different outcome only to find out that it's not my plan but His?

SO MANY...

And yet, my trust is in Him the maker of the heavens and earth. My trust is in the unknown, the unseen and the often-made fun of. My trust resides in His blood. The blood that was shed on Calgary for me. You see, I pistis (believe) the red sea did part, I believe a famine took over the land and I believe fire rained from the heavens. I believe that thousands were killed in German camps because of the evil one and I believe that JESUS died and rose again for us.

I have spent so many years with my God watching out for me that I know there are miracles every day that go unseen and I know that in the face of COVID-19 we may suffer financially but we will gain in life. 

My confidence does not rely on the stock market or human kindness and acts of good deeds. It does not exist because I believe humans are giving and loving. My confidence is in Him who sacrificed His own life so that I may have eternal life. 

My life has not been easy, and it's not been as hard as some. I have endured loss and I have felt insignificant. I have watched disease take my loved ones and I have waited by the phone to find out if my brother had survived a fall off a Colorado mountain. I have endured stress in marriage, divorce and reconciliation and I'm walking in faith that my youngest will once again recognize the God I so love. Life has its moments but in all of them, we can pistis. 

WHY?

Because he is faithful. His people still exist today, although they shouldn't. The nation He was born to still holds part of their lands, even though enemies have tried to take it repeatedly. Gentiles know His name because He made it so, which means even though I have no Jewish blood, I am His.

I am forever grateful to my God because I am not worthy. I am fallible and have fallen more times than I want to admit. I am nothing without His blood and I deserve nothing and yet, He gives me grace freely. I don't have to earn His love; it's handed to me and was handed to me the day He chose to die a criminal’s death on a rugged cross. 

WILL WE GET THROUGH COVID-19?

Yes, we will. I still believe in the face of destruction there is light. Will we be a prosperous nation again?  That I can't answer, only time will tell. What I can tell you is that we were meant to be destroyed by the one that holds the world, yet, we can trust our God is near and that what is impossible for man, is possible for Him. You see we choose to run after power, money, prestige and our own selfish desires. He pursues us because He knows we NEED Him.

On this beautiful Saturday, take some time to reflect on your life. Disappointment is part of this fallen world, light shines in the face of it. May you see Him today the way I do with belief and anticipation for my life would be nothing without Him.

John 6:29 NIV

Jesus answered, "The work of God is this: to believe (pistis) in the one he has sent."

Acts 16: 31 NIV

They replied, "Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved-you and your household."

My prayer for you today:

No matter the circumstances, I pray that you would ask Jesus to reveal Himself to you today. I pray that this day would be the start of many that you begin to believe the words written in the Bible for they are true and living. Even though you may not understand them, carry them in Your heart and speak them often. I believe not because I'm brainwashed but because I know it to be so. Jesus take Your words and place them into the hearts of men and women everywhere. I praise You and thank You for guiding sinners to the cross and for freely giving us Your love. 

GEHENNA-IN THE VALLEY

Good morning my warrior sisters-

First, praise be to Jesus!  For in this time of great strife we must begin with praise!

How often are you watching the news or hearing how the administration is failing?  How often do you see a video where people are doing the wrong thing?  How many times have you heard how many millions are impacted by COVID-19 or that the sky is falling?

I'm sure you have heard or seen many of these things. What we aren't seeing is what's happening behind closed doors or in private discussions within our towns, states and government. We're not seeing the millions of people that are helping others, donating ventilators, designing new technologies like testing, or even about the auto workers who have worked tirelessly to change their plants into ventilator factories.  And then there are the doctors, nurses, medical assistants, working 12 hour shifts in hospitals all over the country. We aren't getting insights into the truckers as they've driven load after load and it doesn't end. We aren't with the grieving people as they mourn their dead and those who must lift them up from afar.

There is a mighty God in the unseen and yes, we are in a GEHENNA (valley).  There remains so much unknown and lack of direction that people feel like they are either in a dream or the worst nightmare they've ever had. This is where God begins to work, when man can't do anything to pick himself back up, God is picking us up out of the valley onto green grass.

For in the shadow much is happening. People are being saved, children are getting to spend more time with their parents, families are eating together and we are starting to care for our neighbors. You know, the ones we are supposed to love but we don't know their names only their faces. Well, after shelter in place orders, they are no longer faces on a street but real people, with real stories, and those stories are what's keeping all of us inspired in the face of this pandemic.

I don't know when things will return to normal and I'm not sure I even want normal again if it means we are selfish, driven, lack time for family and friends, and have no sensitivity to others hardships. I'm praying for a new normal where Jesus is the foundation and that hearts are turned toward Him. I'm praying that we care about our brothers and sisters all over the world and that we feel an immediate need to spread the gospel. Three weeks ago we were all in a different place and my hope is that the GEHENNA we now are in makes us realize that life is short and the world does not hold the keys. For the one who holds the keys to the world is here to destroy all the good that comes from worshiping Jesus and believing that we can TRUST IN HIM.

I have no idea where you are today or what you hope in. I hope you found this blog and it is turning your heart toward Jesus. My words mean nothing but HIS WORD is strong and true.  Hang on my dear sisters and pray, this to shall pass.

Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and staff, they comfort me. Psalm 23:4

Lord, our Father, do YOUR will on earth and make us better people. May the valley of the shadow of death give us hope in YOU. May we comfort the mourners and pray for those that don't know where their rent will come from today. Give us eyes to see where we need to go and Lord give us courage to spread the good news during this pandemic. People of all races and from all countries need to hear Your WORDS and be comforted by Your SPIRIT. I am just one of many that follow you and that are being called. Please be with us and may my words encourage women to seek you first.  In Jesus name I pray, your daughter Lisa.

ELPIZO-TRUST THE LORD OUR GOD

Good morning warriors-

It's been over two years since last my fingers typed on this blog and SO MUCH has happened.  Here we are in a world that changed in the blink of an eye, we are at home and COVID-19 is rampant. And I in all the chaos,  I find myself once again realizing how important HIS words are in our lives.

Breathing, inhaling and exhaling will not stop all the uncertainty, only God can calm the mind, bring peace to your being and provide a road toward hope. It's in our ability to look up that is important now, not money nor power are important right now. We are all learning that we must look for provision and sanity in other places besides ourselves and we are all looking for answers.

Families are going out together, they are eating at home together, there aren't any sports to take us away from each other and all of the sudden we have to be together, which means in a few weeks our lives completely changed. So out of what is bad, we are finding hope in ways I haven't experienced in my lifetime. We went from being a nation with stock markets at all time highs to lows we haven't seen since 2008.  We were a divided nation based on political viewpoints and there was lots of hate.

How can something good come out of something so bad?  Because we love a God who is turning our hearts toward him, that's how.

It will be HIS word that impacts us in the coming days when things are dark.  WE MUST unite and find HIM.

So today, I leave you with the word I spoke on Christmas.  It would be my word for 2020 and wow is it so true today.  I chose TRUST as my word this year.  In Greek, it is elpizo.  Trust is hard in good times, now I must trust in the unseen and I will choose to believe day by day through the words spoken over thousand of years ago.

Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.


I BELIEVE, I TRUST, DAY BY DAY, JESUS WILL SHOW ME THE WAY, and HE will for you too!  Let's trust together...

Until tomorrow...